Archive for April, 2007


Thursday, April 12th, 2007

I’ve been working like a dog all week. Granted, I’ve been slaving away for the past few weeks already, so this is not something that is really new. There is no way I can do this sort of thing when I have a family, so I guess it is a good thing I am still single right now. My basic fear is that I still don’t know quite when I am going to come crashing down. How much longer can I last before I need to at least take a break?

Inner struggle

Sunday, April 8th, 2007

So while, physically, I have recently been taking better of myself, during the quieter moments in life, I am reminded that my mind is still a mess. There is simply too many things that I haven’t had time to figure out yet. Work-life balance, I tell myself; it’s so much easier to say than it is to do though. I’m sure there are lots of people in the same boat, so I’m sure this situation is not unique.

Sometimes I think I’m being too hard on myself. In some ways though, it drives me. You can’t really push someone if they don’t want to be pushed. They have to push themselves. My own deficiencies, whether real or perceived within my own mind, is what urges me to try and better my predicament.

I definitely don’t like failing, but the more sensible side of me know it is the only way to learn. Usually, when I initially fail, I re-double my efforts. If I fail yet again, that’s when I stop and take a step back to re-think the situation. Banging my head against a wall repeatedly has never been my style. Staying adaptable is one of our greatest strengths. Yet, I still feel like a broken record sometimes — doomed to repeat myself.


Tuesday, April 3rd, 2007

Unfortunately, there is nothing profound or deeply thoughtful in my head at the moment. I’m too hungry and too tired to be thinking of too much else. I just hope I can wake up early enough tomorrow to eat breakfast before going to work. I feel like my whole body is dying out on me sometimes. It makes me wonder if I push myself too hard.

There are so many things that I have to do. One of the things I need to work on is better time management. I need to push off on non-critical items and take care of important matters first before worrying too much about the little things. Unfortunately, it is usually the little things that can make or break your day. Still, I guess you can only do what you can. People really can’t expect much more than that.