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One great difficulty that I’ve always had was keeping in touch with the people I know (or rather, used to know). Part of it I guess is probably my own fault since it definitely does require some action on my part and I’m just lazy. The other part might just be that I don’t particularly feel the need to stay in touch with most people because I feel that, ultimately, they will never truely understand me. It also seems particularly difficult to stay in contact with those who are in other stages of life, or are now simply physically removed from the location you are at.

I find it one of the truest tests of friendships to be able to still understand and bond with each other despite the length of real time that has passed since the last communication. It doesn’t really matter that it has been months, or years even. All that matters is that when you do meet up again, you can still instantly feel comfortable (or maybe even giddy) and chat away as if it was like the old days. I think that when a relationship can get to that point, it is how you know you have a real friend who will largely be around for your whole life simply because your friendship is able to have survived the passage of time.

As the years roll by, I think that it is harder to make new friends. Part of it might just be that you end up getting out less. Another part might be that you just end up naturally filtering out people that don’t end up being true friends. People do tend to flock amongst those that think in similar terms. However, perhaps this exclusivity is not exactly always a good thing since it really only serves but to divide us from seeing other points of view. Even when the thought is outside of the normal group behavior, peer pressure may still play a role in determining the outward opinions being presented when placed under duress or pushed into action by the group.

I think that the day that I can finally break free of such behavioral concerns will be a sign that I have started to overcome the chains that I have for so long binded myself to. That is supposed to be a good thing; so, why do I feel like it is also giving into the Dark Side?

Busy busy busy. I think that best describes what has been a rather hectic six weeks or so. The basic nutshell is that I’ve largely been working like a dog recently and haven’t had too much time to myself. I guess the good news about it is that I overcame a major hurdle at work and life is starting to settle down a little to a more reasonable pace again. This week so far has been my decompression week as I slow myself down from the 14-18 hour days back down to a more respectable 9-10.

However, that being said, I probably still don’t get enough sleep still. I find myself staying up later this week while simultaneously waking up earlier. It’s probably a bad sign that my body is screaming for some sort of stability. The good news is that at least this week I have actually gotten some personal time after work to do whatever. I am sure that it helps my stress level to some extent, although I could probably still try and not worry about work so much.

There are times I wonder why I push myself so far for something in which I don’t really have all that much to gain. Sometimes I wish I knew the answer to question myself. It really does nothing except reinforce the mindset that I really need to own my own business at some point in my life. I’m not really sure I’m cut out to survive in the corporate world. There is always that nagging feeling that I probably just end up getting abused by those who play the game.

I figure that by late January or early February, my working life here should be pretty stable and relatively easier. It might even be possible that it will be better sooner, but I pretty much expect things to be relatively locked down by that point.  Hopefully, I don’t keep continuing to procrastinate my own personal life by using work as an excuse.

I have to say that I’m slightly disappointed in Nintendo’s starting price of $250. However, they will still probably sell out regardless. Shoot, I know I’ll still buy one anyways just for Zelda. By next year the price will have to be at $200 or less I think in order to effectively effectively gain large chunks of market share from Microsoft and Sony. This is Nintendo basically maximizing profits.

Sony is going to probably end up taking a beating, but, overall, it will probably still be the leader out of the consoles by two years time. However, I think they will definitely not be as dominate as with the PS1 and PS2. The PS3 just straight up costs too much. It’ll need to drop in price a bit before the masses will try and splurge on something like that… and lets not even start on how much games will cost now.

I’m glad Bioware is releaseing Jade Empire for the PC next year. Good ol’ Bioware is still giving it’s old PC RPG gamers something to wait for.

Talk about stupid. Why bother demoting Pluto? Not everything in life fits in nice, easy categories. Silly scientists.

Well, apparently, I’m still alive. Most things in my working life are largely under control and I’ve been able to finally start enjoying some of my spare time after working hours. After a short break, I’ll probably try and find another hobby or something. I’m not sure yet though, because my current hobbies are highly expensive and actually have been making quite a dent in my ability to spend. It really doesn’t help that I have far too many interests right now but hardly the time to do everything.

I have so many things on pre-order it scares me. I should be getting at least a box every week until the end of the year. I have no idea how I am supposed to afford a house in the future with my current habits. I need to find hobbies that don’t necessarily break the bank. That and I need to cut down on the recent steak dinners.

Anyways, there should be lots of good stuff coming out in the near future. We got some Star Wars DVD’s, another console, a bunch of cool games, and some good books. Hopefully, I won’t find myself bored during this second half of the year.

What in the world? After practically a decade TF2 might actually get released. I’ll try not to keep my hopes up considering I used to play QWTF, but maybe it can be something that finally replaces Counter-Strike for me…

So, in a general nutshell, I’m starting a new job today. In many ways, I believe it will probably cause me loads more stress than what I was doing previously. However, assuming I can survive this, then I believe I will have forced myself up a notch in terms of what I will be able to do. Of course, I could also fail miserably, but I guess the worse that could really come from this is that I learn where my current limits are. I can’t say I’d ever considered losing a job as a true negative, but then again, I’ve also yet to be fired from any place either. Regardless, as long as something is learned in the process, it is not a total loss.

However, it probably does not help that I’m feeling like I might be catching something. My general eating and sleeping habits have been poor at best lately. It could be the weather, or it could be something else, but I just cannot sleep for a good chunk of time at all without randomly waking up. I just hope my body can hang in there for a while. It would be annoying to get sick right now, but then again, when isn’t it annoying to get sick? I could just take this all as a bad omen, but I am trying to look on the bright side — at least I’m now forcing myself to do something different with regards to work.

It’s always bothered me whenever I felt like I was stagnating. It didn’t particularly matter what it was, just the mere principle that I was on some sort of plateau. While I realize that everything has its limits, part of the drive is to always try and reach a little higher. I’ve had more than my share of reaching for a bit more than I could chew, but ultimately, I believe that the struggle helps define the experience in a positive fashion. As a general rule, nothing worth getting is gotten for free.

Wade gets a ring! Woo Woo!